Sometimes when the world seems a little sour to me I just cook. When I am cooking I can forget all the other stuff. I am good at cooking, so I have no doubts about myself when I am in the kitchen. There’s just me and the sounds and smells of cooking. There are no real limitations; I can add or subtract as I like. I dont say the wrong thing and I dont have to answer to anyone. I am in my world, one I understand.
Sometimes I just get sick of myself, I get sick of the treadmill and the restrictions. I want to change everything or change the place I live or run away and just keep going but….. I have responsibilities, I have a son and I have a cat, who is currently sick. Just one more thing to worry about. I’ve been in such a spin in the last week that I just keep cooking and writing recipes and trying to do the things I love but I am disheartened and unsure of myself. I think I need a big sleep, but I don’t have time.
During the frenzy, I made a this lemon loaf cake 4 times. Each time I thought the texture was not quite right. I changed this and that and still I found it wasn’t what I wanted, although the flavour was perfect, the texture was wrong. You can imagine with so many of them around the kitchen I was then stressing about waste and people that were starving until I came to the conclusion that this was going to be the world’s next banana bread. I put it in the pan with a little butter and its texture transformed into the most beautiful lemon bread. I put it in the toaster and it was good but , oh how that frypan just transformed it.
I added a couple of other bits to keep it company and I can tell you that this IS the ultimate brunch/ breakfast bread. It is just the one thing that was very clear to me. It made me feel like I should smile. Passionfruit can usually make me smile too, and I discovered that added to a spoosh of maple syrup the potential to see past the clouds was possible .
What really got me here, being able to write this, what really pulled me out of the depths and away from shedding tears of self pity, was when my nearly past teens son put his arms around me and gave me a hug….and said, “It will be all right Mum”. In that minute I felt sad but so happy and so very thankful to just be alive and feel loved.
Lemon Bread, Basil Mascarpone and Maple Passionfuit Sauce
Ingredients
- 225 gm plain flour 1 1/2 cups
- 2 teaspoons baking powder
- 1/2 teaspoon salt
- 200 gm yoghurt 1 cup
- 200 gm caster sugar
- 3 eggs
- 1 tablespoon zest
- 125 ml oil vegetable
- 60 ml lemon Juice 3 Tablespoons
Basil Mascarpone
- 1 tablespoon basil sliced finely then chopped across the other way.
- 250 gm mascarpone
- 1 teaspoon icing sugar
Passionfruit Maple Syrup
- 2 whole passionfruit approx 4 Tablespoons
- 1-2 tablespoons real maple syrup
- 1 recipe microwave lemon curd
Instructions
- Use a large loaf tin. Mine is 11x24cm or 9.5 x 4.5 inches. oven 170C/325F
- In a large bowl mix the dry ingredients: flour,bp,sugar,salt and zest
- In a medium bowl, mix the eggs , oil, lemon juice and yoghurt.
- Mix the two together gently and till JUST combined. Just as if you were making muffins
- Pour the mixture into a greased lined loaf tin and bake for approx 40 minutes or until a skewer inserted comes out clean. Cool and use now or later
Reheat the cooled loaf: Heat a frypan till hot. Butter the lemon cake and put in the pan to brown on both sides. Spread the plates with a little lemon curd. Add the lemon bread, then basil mascarpone and then the Passionfruit maple syrup.
- Serve with berries and a little caramelized banana.
Find the recipe for 10 minute microwave lemon curd here
celia
Oh honeybun, I’m so sorry to hear you’ve been so blue. We’ve all got a lot on our plates at the moment, don’t we? Is there anything I can do? xxx
Helen | Grab Your Fork
Butter in a frypan makes everything right in this world, I say, but lovely sons like yours are even better 🙂
Diane
and an amazing breakfast it was!!! Still remember the tang and sweetness of fruit and cake with the onctuous basil mascarpone! It takes a bit of genius to put it all together!!!
InTolerant Chef
I hope life comes back into balance soon sweetie. I think you did a great job of turning lifes lemons into Lemon bread instead of lemonade 🙂 Basil mascarpone sounds delicious, what a great idea! You’ve done a great job with Skater, and have a relaxing weekend honey, xox
Maureen | Orgasmic Chef
I should be closer and then we could get into some trouble together! I love the lemon bread but all the extras would make me very happy.
Lorraine @ Not Quite Nigella
I love toasting breads like this. I made a coconut bread recently and toasted it and as you say, it really transformed the bread! 😀
3outa4
What a beautiful young man and what an amazing recipe… xx
Krista
I’m so glad your son loved on you when you needed it most. XO That must’ve felt amazing. I’m sorry you’ve had a rough time and really hope things get better. How lovely that you were able to make something delicious in the midst of the sadness. XO
My Kitchen Stories
Thanks Krista x